A lot of people say they are ‘stronger’ after living with and recovering from bad periods of their mental health problem. I refuse to say this because I don’t know how I would define the word ‘stronger’ in that context. However, I am looking on the positive side of everything that has happened for the first time.
For me, the most important thing that has come from this last few months is that I’ve found myself in some tough situations with some very hard decisions to make and I’ve worked through them. Having led a relatively sheltered life up until this point, the hardest decision I’d had to make was which city to go to university in! Now I know, in face I am sure, that I can get through many of the problems that life could potentially throw at me. My attitude to life has changed dramatically. If somebody had told me a year ago that I might have to drop out of university or that I wouldn’t be applying for jobs in my final year of university then I’d have cried. I might still cry if this is the case but I have plans now, I know there are so many other options out there and that university, for all it is worth in the real world, is not the be all and end all.
Previously I’ve mentioned how amazing my close friends have been over the past few months. The people that I failed to mention were my family. If my friends have been amazing then my family have been phenomenal. Not once have they been annoyed with me or the situation (at least not in front of me) when they so easily could have been! I’m not afraid to tell them anything now, whereas a year ago I may well have been! Like me, they’re not the gushing type so I’ll leave it there and just say thank you!
Not only do I now have a much healthier attitude to life, I also have a healthier lifestyle. I wrote back in May about how exercise can have a huge impact on your mental health. Well it turns out that your sleeping habits, eating habits and generally how you spend your time can too. I won’t bore you all with what I eat; however, fruit, veg and meat play a much bigger part in my diet that dairy and carbs do now! There is also a short period of time (or sometimes a long period of time) each day where I just do whatever I want. That can be sitting on my phone, on YouTube or just going shopping. Basically I make time to think about nothing important! I also mentioned sleeping, I think it is clear to a lot of people around me and also that have read my insomnia blog post that I have had a few issues with this. Well I’m pleased to tell anybody that cares that I now get 8 hours a night, almost every night. In fact I had a sneaky 12 hours earlier in the week!
Some people have been asking what’s next for Spotty Sunflowers seeing as I am a lot better than I was. Well I’m going to carry on posting because I can’t tell you how much of a difference talking about mental health makes. It is one of the most important things to me because I can’t bear to think of anybody suffering in silence. However, since starting this blog I have become a big fan of just sitting down on my laptop and writing. So, I have a new blog (which has nothing to do with mental health) called Sunflower Snippets. I’m pulling previous posts from other blogs I’ve had together and writing a few new ones. To start it off I’m going to post something every weekday in September. I can’t promise you’ll all find it all interesting but I think there will be something for everybody on there, so go take a peek at some point in the next few weeks! As for this blog, I have a few ideas (or suggestions that were given to me) but I’ll post about them next time because this post is getting rather long now!
I’m quite into motivating quotes at the moment so I’ll leave you with my current favourite that I’m clinging on to because I’m not 100% sure what the future currently holds:
‘When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us’
PS. I know that most of you will know that quote but I will be very impressed if you can tell me who said it!